Of course, a feeling is just a feeling is just a feeling. So, as much as I know he was trying to make me feel better, I also know that I felt hurt and upset and that was okay.
The fact that the March winds have arrived in April, after a particularly long spate of days that were almost summer like is not helping matters. Winchester is known as the apple blossom capital of the world and the fact that it's been gusting up to 40 mph since Sunday and blowing all of the pretty blooms off the trees is bothering me. Why does this always happen every spring? It gets really pretty outside and then boom. We have hurricane strength winds and they blows all the pretty away. Is someone playing a joke? I didn't realize that Virginia was the wind tunnel of the world.
With all of the various weather changes, I have been moving around like I am 80 years old and bedridden. My ankles creak, my fingers crack, my shoulder feels like someone is stabbing me. Fibromyalgia - the gift that keeps on giving. You know that old saying? When in Texas (or where ever), if you don't like the weather, wait five minutes? I think someone got the state wrong.
I am struggling to figure out whether I want to keep blogging about my life, switch over to an all cross stitch blog, or just read what everyone else is posting. Right now, I am adding more and more cross stitch blogs to my reader just to see what everyone else is working on. Of course, then I want to order more patterns and supplies and hand my credit card to the woman at Hobby Lobby and say I'll take one of everything in your stitching department. No, make that two. No, three...well, you get the idea.
When I started blogging, it was because I was desperately in need of a confidence boost. I had just been fired from my job and I had some things to say about it and I wanted people to hear them. Now, I'm wondering if it's run its course. Not everyone can be a Jenny Lawson or that woman on the TJ Maxx "fashionista" blogger commercial. The internet is such a vast place and how do you carve out a place in it? Especially if you're not sure what you want to "be" on the internet?
I've been lucky in that my blogging accomplished its original purpose. But now, I am finding that my focus has shifted almost entirely to cross stitching and I don't want to write so much anymore. Maybe it isn't a passion so much as it was a need that has now been met?
I've mentioned on here before that I wasn't sure what to do with this blog. I still am not sure what to do with this blog. But I think I am at a cross roads. I need to decide. Am I going to keep writing? Am I going to set up a separate blog for the cross stitching? There's a whole community of stitchers out there and I suspect they don't really want to hear me whining. They want to see pictures. And not of the dog.
But, while I try to decide what to do about this blog, here is a video of my dog and cat...we call them Dumb and Dumber. I think the cat is actually "Dumber." The dog would probably title this "Stay Away From My Junk."
Those animals crack me up.