So, I am taking today to go through some things, get organized, make a list of things like account user names and passwords, important account numbers, insurance information, etc. One of the things on my list was to go through my journals and decide whether I wanted to keep them or toss them out. When I began the blog, it became, in a way, my daily journal. Although I don't share a lot of what is personally going on in my head, on the other hand, I really do. So I have not been handwriting my journals anymore.
I always tended to write when I was feeling bad. I have just started re-reading some of what I wrote and I can see that I used my journals as an outlet for my depression. I kind of knew that already, which is part of the reason I was thinking of getting rid of them. I mean, when my kids eventually have to go through my things, do I really want them to see the darker side of my personality? So, I was thinking out they go...except...there's an awful lot of me in those journals.
I hadn't gotten very far, when I stumbled across something that I thought might be somewhat inspirational and blog-worthy. Although I'm not religious in that I don't go to church and I am not the kind of person who thinks there is a man in a white robe with a beard sitting on a throne up there judging my every move, I do find myself comforted by some spiritual ideas. For a time, I would turn on the Joel Osteen broadcast on Sundays and kind of considered that my weekly "church." I didn't watch for the God part so much as the inspirational, apply this to your every day life kind of thing. I actually took notes in my journals when I was going through a rough time a couple of years ago and today, I stumbled across these notes. (Please note that what is written below is entirely from the Joel Osteen ministries site.)